How do you tell your Master/Dom/Owner when something has gone really wrong with your health? Do you ever let the nurturer inside you stop you from giving him the information which is his right to have because you want to protect him from the truth?
There are lots of times when I over do it in efforts to be of service, both physically and emotionally. But I don't think I have not told Beloved when I'm not feeling well.
Of course, Beloved lives with me, so it is hard to really HIDE any health problems from him. There are times when I don't notice my own slips...like when I forget to take my soul vitamin or haven't been good about sleep/food...and Beloved is very quick to pick up on the results (irritability, low tolerance with kids, easy to frustrate). I honestly don't notice until I start speaking with him, and then it's usually an "uh-oh!" moment.
Do you tell him everything all the time or are you more guarded when it comes to you? If no. does this conflict with your ideal of being a submissive or slave or does it have the opposite effect?
I can definitely be more guarded about my own health, head, and heart. It is easier to deal with other people's needs rather than your own, and I like to hide my struggles beneath a shroud of service. I realize long-term, this can be a detriment, but it is hard to stop. It has been an automatic behavior since I was a child.
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