Day 16 - May 16
I am open-minded. I honestly do not think there is much in lifestyle choices that would rock me. Shock me, disturb me...sure...but I believe I am able to separate myself enough to accept that "your kink is not my kink."
People think I am a tender spirit because I don't bulwark my emotions. It's kind of funny because if I express myself, it is a sure sign that I AM comfortable enough doing so.
*wry smile* I remember a play party early at which I ended up crying in the corner. My tears were interpreted by those who didn't know me as being squicked by the needle play. HA! I've cut up bodies and gotten intimate with the blood donor center. I admit, I do not understand needle play, but hey, have a blast! No, my tears were because I had tried to escape to the kitchen to wash dishes, to be of service, but was gently told I was a guest and didn't need to do that. I had no recourse for the feelings inside. Having later explained myself to the Hostess, I was promised that if I ever came back, She would ensure I had the opportunity to serve as much as the other girls played.
But it is that sort of situation that I am misunderstood.
In general, I am fascinated by things in the lifestyle. I've tried to work out my own depravity in stories and talks, seeking to wrap my mind around what is inside ME. Learning about others' explorations is intriguing and tantalizing. Muggles might label me as sick, but I think that makes me open-minded.
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