Well, perhaps that is a slight exaggeration. Beloved and I have been "officially" exploring D/s play for a couple of months now. I've worn his key since August, and I've been reading and worrying and wondering about being a submissive. We have made two visits to GD2, which has proven very enlightening. Last week, I surprised Beloved with a silver chain and heartlock collar...perhaps other Masters would be horrified by the idea of a submissive supplying her own collar, but Beloved was pleased and touched. He is learning, too.
Which, I suppose, is where this blog begins.
We are learning.
I happened to come across a sticker that read "WWMD - What would Master do?" which I think fits well. I am on my own, responsible for raising our son, and faced with important decisions regularly without always being able to ask Beloved the answer. I think he would be very unhappy if I couldn't decide which tires to purchase for the car, or how to manage the household finances. At the same time, I strive to consider Beloved when making decisions. It's not a new thought process...just more deliberate now.
Last night, Beloved was commenting that he hasn't settled on a name for me yet. "girl" "pet" "slave" have all been tasted, but he hasn't decided on one that really fits. I think it is simply because while I am embracing submission, I am also his partner. Our roles are fluid, ebbing and flowing as needed.
Starting this journal has also been a struggle. "Good" titles are all taken, and I didn't want to be cliche. I really want this to be REAL...to be about my journey, my discovery, my learning complaisance.
Here's to the beginning!
