Thursday, February 25, 2010

Uxorial fashions? Not!

"The clothes that designers showed for fall during New York Fashion Week, which ended Thursday, invoked the classics but with interesting, updated ideas mixed in. Among the trends we think we'll see women wearing come September are these five."

This, by the Fashion Police in New York City. These fashions are befitting the slightly insane, rather than your wife. I think I'm thankful I can't afford to keep up with fashion!


By Booth Moore

um...ratty remnants sewn together is the new fashion, eh? Well, shooo...I can reproduce this crap from bits in the attic that are already moth-eaten...


by Alexander Wang

Double-lapels with a...kite-string ruffle? Combined with grey stirrup pants? Okay...


By Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's line "the Row"

Seriously? Crotch-bows? I don't care if it IS silk, it look silly!



by Marc Jacobs

I don't even know what to say about this one...velvet + plaid + fur. Sure, wind nor rain could penetrate it...because I wouldn't DARE wear this outside!



By Michael Kors

If you would like to keep up with fashion but cannot afford to do so, go to your bathroom, flip the rug over, and wrap it around your torso. Secure with belt.

Anyone else afraid?

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Bragging about Beloved!

Yeah, you know it! *grins*

For months now, Beloved's been working his tail off for his company. Stepping up to a Director position, so far without getting a raise (it's been promised, but he hasn't seen it yet), taking on more management duties, working late and on weekends. The man has been giving 110%!

Yesterday, he was told he could move his cube...INTO THE CORNER OFFICE!!!!!


Wooooo-hooooo! *happy dance*

There's a window, which makes it colder, but we already have a couple of heaters stored in the attic, so no big deal there. And for Valentine's day, the kids and I gave him four Chinese watercolors that he now has wall space for.

I'm so very very proud of him!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Sometimes, a girl needs to learn a little humility.

To this laudable goal, you decided to take me out. Of course, it wouldn't really work if I knew the plans you had in store. Instead, you simply invite me out for a movie date. You sweeten the deal by having already arranged childcare. You only ask that I wear something sexy.

Giggling at that, I go up to the bedroom and rummage through the closet while you gather the kids and the gear. I settle on my "nymph" outfit...a short, gauzy beige skirt and my green Ren Faire vest. I've added my deer-skin boots and white cloak since there's the outside to deal with. *sigh* The winter is wearing on me...

We're ready to go, and you have a funny smile on your lips. I frown, asking if I should change, and you kiss me, saying of course not. I look beautiful. I blush. We herd the kids to the car and get them dropped off.

Then, you pull out my collar. I swallow nervously, racing through the "rules" I'm supposed to observe while wearing it. Let you open the doors for me. Stand until invited to sit. Lower my eyes...? er...I think...unless you demand eye contact? crap. I fidget and frown. Not quite what I was wanting to do today...but... I take a deep breath and let it out. I smile, trying to learn complaisance.

I remember, last second, to wait until you open the car door for me. That earned me a grin and a "Good girl!" I smile back, blushing a tiny bit, and snuggle against you as I take your arm. We walk into the theater, you opening the doors, my following you. You buy tickets and Dots, popcorn, and Coke. We find seats in the middle of the empty theater and get settled.

Then you reach over and start caressing my thigh, pushing my skirt up a little higher. I giggle, blush, and glance around.

Nervous?

I wrinkle my nose. Sorta.

But there's no one here.

Yeah, but...

I jump was your fingers reach all the way to my panties. My hand lands on your wrist, then my eyes open wide at the stern look in yours. Please... it's more of a whimper than a real request.

Mine.

I'm flustered. I tear my eyes from yours, glancing around, then dropping my gaze. You continue to lightly stroke the cotton between my legs.

MINE.

It's a growl, a command. I bite my lip. I can feel the heat on my cheeks. yes... it's barely a whisper. I can feel tears welling up in my eyes, and I swallow hard, struggling. I spread my legs for you, hoping to demonstrate my compliance.

Someone rounds the corner of the stairs. I snap my thighs tightly closed, head jerking up, fear in my eyes. You lean close, breathing in my hair.

Open your legs.

No! No...please...no... The man is walking to a seat a few rows behind us. I twist my head, urgently, frantically begging you to take notice of the stranger now in the theater.

Yes, I see him. Open your legs. Now.

I stare at you, the tears slipping from my eyes. I hate you. I hate you! You wriggle your still-trapped fingers slightly.

Now, girl.

Anger and defiance, I grit my teeth. I can take anything you dish out, you bastard. I spread my thighs to the corners of my seat. You simply smile and settle back, caressing my crotch and looking at the screen as the lights dim.

As the previews play, I slowly lose my rigidity, unclench my jaw. It's dark, no one can see. I breath a sigh.

You up the stakes.

Lift your ass off the seat and slide your panties down.

I look at you in disbelief. You're teasing me, right?

Don't make me ask again, or it will be your bra.

I'm beginning to get an inkling that you are serious. I squirm and frown and beg, but in the end, I'm shifting and slipping the panties down. You reach behind me and pull my skirt up from under my ass, and I'm sitting directly on the seat. Please...
Beloved....please!

Your hand reaches between my knees and grabs the cotton panties, dragging them down my legs, down to the floor. Then you scoop them up to put in your pocket.

Keep your legs open.

I'm nearing panic, but I spread my legs. The movie is starting.

You seem engrossed in the movie, paying no attention to me at all. I, on the other hand, can't focus on anything but the prickly velvet of the seat on my exposed thighs. I'm both hot and freezing, and I'm shamed and angry.

It's maybe 30 minutes before you caress my hand gently. I stare straight ahead, feigning to ignore you. You smirk and lean over, grabbing my hair and kissing me. I fight you just a little...but I don't want to cause more of a scene. I just want to hide.

Now, you seem to forget that we are in the theater. You kiss me again, deeply, tightening your hold in my hair when I pull away, leaving me breathless. Your other hand is sliding up my thigh. I flinch away, but your fingers dig into my flesh. OUCH!

Then don't fight me.

It's the dark, deep, Dom voice. I shiver and surrender. Your fingers find me wet and soft, and you laugh quietly in the dark. You tease me mercilessly, until I'm tilting my hips for you, wanting more. Instead of gratifying me, you trace patterns on my face with my own juices.

You press my head back against the back of my seat, pull my knee to the corner of my seat. My skirt is almost completely tucked up at my waist. You lean over me, locking my eyes.

I'll be right back...Don't move.

My lips tremble, my eyes beg you to stay, but my head nods in agreement.

You stand up, and I close me eyes. I hear you scoot through the row of seats, listen to the movie, try desperately to will you back. It seems forever before I can hear you coming back through the row.

But you settle behind me, not next to me. I squeeze my eyes shut as one hand grabs my hair and the other grabs my right breast.

What a pretty little whore.

I jerk, but am pinned by my hair, the seat, the hand. It isn't you!

I scream. Get away from me! Help!

He laughs, and the hand that was on my breast is now covering my nose and mouth. I can't breath, and he leans close to my ear. Oh, now, that isn't very nice. Your Master told you not to move...didn't he? AND your Master gave me a nod when he left. Now, are you going to be nice, or is this going to get ugly?

My hands are grabbing his wrist, fighting for air. I'm scared...but the words slowly sink in... Master...gave a nod? My body slumps, defeated. Tears mix with the stickiness on my cheek.

There's a good whore.

He gives me air, and I sob as both hands reach around me, grabbing my breasts, squeezing them, tweaking the hard nipples. He kisses my cheek, tasting my cunt and my tears. A hand is between my thighs, delving into my open and wet pussy. I moan in spite of myself, already so hot for someone else.

Good girl.

I'm sobbing and moaning, melting in misery and desperate for more. He starts to tease my clit while fingers are stroking my insides. My body shudders, and the tears course down my cheeks. A thumb caresses my lips and I automatically open my mouth to suckle. I taste myself on him.

Oh yeah...suck it, whore.

I shiver and writhe against this stranger's hands. I can feel an orgasm building and I'm horrified, closing my mind against it. No...no no no no no no no.

Yes, you little slut...cum for me.


My lip quivers, my body arches. He pumps his fingers faster, deeper, driving me. A cry escapes as the climax is forced from me, soaking the seat and the fingers. He stays with me until I slump over. Then I'm offered three fingers to lick clean. I'm so distant...but I take them deep in my throat, sucking them fervently. Finally, he stands up. I hear the zipper on his pants.

Turn around, whore. Suck my cock.

I close my eyes, searching for...what? What does a whore hope for when she's told to suck off a stranger? A fast cummer? Tasteless spunk? Or does she remind herself of the paycheck? I don't know what she hopes for...but what I found was the echo in my head.

Your Master gave me a nod.

I find myself on my knees, on a wet theater seat, leaning over the back, smelling the muskiness of a man's excitement and tasting his slipperiness. My tongue traced the thick, sensitive vein down, spiralling around, until he was deep in my throat. I moaned, and he grabbed my hair, slamming deeper, fucking my mouth. I couldn't breath for the onslaught so I gagged. I tried to pleasure him, but he stole rather than received. Just when I thought I might dissolve completely, he pulled away, his cock spasming, his semen spraying my chin and chest. He groaned and then looked down at me.

Now THAT was hot. Tell your Master I said you were a filthy little whore for me.

He gets up and walks away. I don't look at him, shamed and exhausted. I curl up in my seat, pulling om cloak over me as the chill descends on me. My eyes are closed. The movie is still playing...I wonder vaguely where you are.

The light come up and the credits are rolling. Had I fallen asleep? I look around, and find you watching me from the aisle seat, three rows up. You stand up and come over to me, leaning down, and kissing me lightly on the forehead. A warm, wet napkin wipes my face and neck.

The confusion furrows my brow. Tears again, and I stammer. I'm a..I'm a f-f-filthy little whore....

You smile, pulling me into your arms. Oh, yes you are. Don't get me wrong, I think you are wonderful and beautiful girl, of whom I love very much. But you're also something dirty inside...and sometimes I need to remind you of that.

round and round and round we go...

I'm short on sleep. I've been going to bed a little late...maybe 11pm. Girl wakes up around 1-2am and I'll nurse her, but she has now taken to waking UP at about 4-4:30am, staying UP for about 2 hours, and then going back to sleep. Boy gets up at about 7am and inevitably wake Girl up as well as Beloved and me and the day begins.

For me...it's usually starting on the wrong foot.

Today, Beloved has been very *productive* which makes me feel slightly more incompetent, and the cousins are going to descend this afternoon. It all combines to make me one edgy pixie.

So then I feel guilty about feeling edgy or snapping or not being more useful. I wish to improve things; I get the crazy silly notion of buying something Beloved wants; I get bummed out by the prices of the things Beloved wants verse the state of our finances; I get more grumpy because I can't buy something nice for Beloved; I resent the lack of sleep which is making me grumpy...

round and round.

I know I can't BUY Beloved's happiness. I know he'd much rather my smile, my cheerful assistance. I am just not sure how to give him those.

The other day, Beloved didn't want to play because he wasn't sure he trusted himself. That's not good. He knows I'm short with the kids and over-tired. That's not good. We are both so very stressed out and very tired.

It's hard to complain when we are still managing to tread water...we're not sinking yet...and there's a speck on the horizon that *might* be a rescue boat...if only we can keep it up for a little longer...

Friday, February 19, 2010

I am only an egg.

Seriously.

Since 2001 when we met Kate, I have been told that I should read Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Heinlein.

A couple of months ago, Sir gave me a copy. I have been trying to read it. TRYING.

*sigh* It's been hard to follow since I only get to read a paragraph at a time. I've met Jubal Harshaw...Beloved says I have gotten through most of the political background but having gotten to the real reasons that Heinlein is adored by polyamorists everywhere. Problem is, I'm kinda stalled in my interest. I dunno. Maybe I am only an egg, but I just don't get the story...

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Feedback requested!

So I've been reading and reading and reading...in part to deny the incrouching deadline, in part because the stuff is interesting...but I finally put together an outline for the presentation I am giving at SJW. I would really appreciate some feedback on what I've got...

I need to submit this SOON...!

When Lifestyles Collide: living both poly and D/s lives

by pixie, 2010

Very few studies of alternative sexual expressions like bondage/discipline, dominance/submission and sadomasochism currently exist, despite the estimation that 23% of the population indulge in terms of fantasy, at least on occasion (Arndt et al, 1985) and 10 % of the population consider it a lifestyle(Masters et al. 1995).  Even fewer studies exist about variations in non-monogamous intimate relationships that are consensual and do not involve deception or “cheating” (labeled as “polyamorous relationships” or “swinging” among other relationship types).  The intersection of non-mongamy and Dominance/submission is complicated and interesting, and it is is what we will be discussing.


1.Why non-monogamy?
a) explore different interests
b) explore different experiences
c) NRE

2.Long-term vs. Short-term

3.What kind of role do YOU play?
a) switch
b) alpha
c) beta
d) sister/brother
e) vanilla

4.The Balancing Act
a) Consenting unequal power dynamics in the relationship - When you've got serious power exchange, many of the "normal" rules of polyamory don't apply. What do we do instead?
b) “Fairness” - when one partner is more 'taken' by a 'new' person and elects to show that new person more attention and support than their long term preexisting partner.

5.The S-Word
Even in SM and polyamory discussion groups I’ve noticed that when we start talking about actual fucking people will be quite shocked. How do you negotiate sex and service?

6.Questions/comments/discussion

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Kinky is NOT a Diagnosis

In the new proposals for the DSM-V, alternative sexual behavior has been depathologized. The American Psychiatric Association's Paraphilias Subworkgroup's DSM revisions acknowledge that you can be a fetishist, transvestite, sexual sadist or sexual masochist without having a mental disorder.

*wry smile* I don't know how kinky people will see this. I mean, it is a relief that it's not a mental disorder! But is this a step towards "normalizing" kink? *cocks eyebrow* Part of the fun of kink is that we are deviants and sickos...right?

Next thing you know, sodemy will be made legal!