I am starting to think the Universe is prepping for something, and I'm nervous. It's just the little things that are not quite right but keep stacking up.
Family chores didn't get done on Sunday because neither Beloved or I had the energy to muster through with the kids. Then we didn't complete trash on Tuesday, although Beloved DID get the recycling out and emptied the kitchen trash. *wry smile* It's a pride point that the household usually only generates 2 bags of trash all week, so it's not a problem, just one more thing that is off.
Both the kids have been having a tough time sleeping. Girl has been having night terrors (screaming and restless, but not waking up), and last night it was Boy who woke the household. The girls ended up in the master bed and the boys took Beloved's room, but it's still just plain off.
Meals around here have been largely MIA. Beloved's chosen some evening workouts and that means either I am trying to feed the kids really early (and sometimes in the car) so we can use childcare at the gym OR I'm simply not inspired to bother cooking. Really, I have been eating like crap, and I am feeling it. I have to address this one, but I'm not sure how.
Beloved and I were really excited about a date night this weekend...going to a wine festival and then having a night without the kids!...but that has been brought into question because of childcare. My cousin was found unresponsive and hasn't regained consciousness, and so my aunt isn't sure she will be available.
I have had a really hard time connecting with Beloved this week. It seems that EVERYTHING I say comes out negative or wrong. I know I'm feeling anxious and, despite decent sleep, I'm tired. *sigh* My therapist wants to meet with Beloved also next week to talk about things that my sessions are triggering.
Blah! On Fet, a friend suggested hibernation. It sounds really good right now!
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