I don't really have a sister-slave, but sometimes I feel that close with silvara, Halder's slave. The five of us (Boy included) went out for supper and talk turned to some of the challenges of being 24/7. One of the comments Halder made was to tease that silvara liked to watch when I was used, which earned him a dirty look. He laughed, and said that it was knowing that it must be hard, knowing the same punishment could be given to her.
I shook my head. "It has less to do with fearing a punishment and everything to do with wishing *I* could spare *her* the suffering."
Silvara chimed in that "Even when you know it's something she enjoys, it's hard to see the pain."
The dichotomy of enjoying a session and yet wanting to spare someone the agony is intriguing. I know I have bitten my lip and worried over other submissives/bottoms/slaves at club, even when there is no way in HELL I'd *want* to be subject to XY or Z, and while I've never watched Halder play with silvara, I know I'll be wincing with every swing he makes. DragonMage touched on the struggle a Dominate husband has in response to a comment I made in another post.
Do you play with others and find it hard to apathetic?
Bit glad you talked about this. Its very true. I think we're very sympathetic to eachother. And it really is hard to watch sometimes. I do feel like we've grown a bit closer lately, and I must admit. I'm very thankful to have you as one of my first and only friends in Chicago. Thanks for being there for me, really. And never ever be afraid to SOS me.
ReplyDeleteOn a side note...the word verification for this post is "Diyhoe" ...do it yourself hoe? Where does blogger/blogspot get these things? :P