From LunaKM: Why do you want to be controlled?
I think that sort of goes back to why did Beloved and I start this adventure. There are lots of mixed answers. The reason it final came up was I had just been committed against my will (never mind that it was a brief stint...it was scary to be committed by strangers!). I was drowning in the stay-at-home life. Everything was so nebulous. Life with an infant meant that time itself was blurred...I was on call 24/7 and nothing seemed solid. I begged Beloved for guidance and limits because I was working myself to death, almost literally, trying to be the Super Mom, forgetting she is plastic and hard and unfeeling.
It has been a JOURNEY which I am continually learning how to balance life, children, service, grace, dignity, and obedience. I know he isn't interested in controlling me. He has his hands full with problems at work, and like me, he offers service to others who need help. On top of which, I don't want to be controlled.
Instead, Beloved helps me create goals and purpose, both day-to-day and long-term. I adore him for that! He helps me balance life's demands and reminds me when I am losing my grace. He nudges me when I falter and encourages me to learn complaisance when I stumble.
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