Do you know the song that Guinevere and Arthur sing? *wry smile* yes...that's been one of my favorite movies since I was a child, but that is besides the point.
It was a good day! Maybe a little rough around the edges, but a good day. While I managed children and helped a friend at the hospital, Beloved managed the house and did a magnificent job of it. I picked up makings for a picnic lunch and we spent the afternoon at Wine on the Fox with Danearis. I grilled hot dogs for a simple supper and we put the children to bed.
Yet, I'm feeling oddly adrift, disconnected, lost. I don't feel like myself. My libido has been zilch, my interest in playing nil. I desperately want to spice up my...our...life, but how?
Which is why Julie Andrews & Richard Burton came to mind. What do the 'nilla folk do to perk up the heart and get through?
I have a sinking feeling that the answer is similar to the song...and the song's ending is a painful realization that they are living a lie.
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ReplyDeleteAlthough I only found your blog yesterday and have not read anything near all of it so probably shouldnot comment on this post I found it spoke to me. I think we all have these days when we look around us and think, things suck, they aren't as they used to be, I am not doing this, this and this and think is this really who and what I am.
Yet you have to think of all those wonderful times, the bad times you got through and the people around you. They might be a bit grey at the moment but remember that they are in your life because of the colour and joy they brought.
Think of yourself these people around you like you, the real you, sometimes it might all feel like an elaborate set up, a lie but then if you didn't have times like this life would be too easy and where would be the fun in that?!
What I am trying to say is for there to be light there has to be dark, for white there has to be black and for lies there has to be truth.
Don't base your feelings right now on a film because Guinevere was an adulteress at the heart of it, are you?
If the answer is no, which I think it is then your problem is not so bad, talk to your husband. He loves you and so do your children let them help you through a downer period in your life.
Sorry about the lecture I hope you take it as it is meant, as a cheer up, not a patronising dear dear.
Good Luck!
Welcome my my corner of the web, ObsidianCub. I think I understand what you mean...I'm not basing anything on the film, although I'd go to bat for Arthur, Gwen, and Lance...If society kept their nose out of the bedroom, it all could have worked out!...but that's the poly speaking. And I love the mythos. But that is a tangent. Thanks for your thoughts...I usually do remember the color around me.
ReplyDeleteHi, thanks. Totaly agree with you on the whole tri thing! Glad at least you figured out what I meant! lol
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