Who is she?

Maybe you've noticed that I've gone into hiding on Fet. Maybe you've noticed I'm being quiet elsewhere. Maybe you're a follower here. Maybe you've only just stumbled upon my journey. For whatever reason, you are reading this.

I'm not entirely sure what to tell you. I have been trying to answer the question, "who is she?" and I have found a lot of distractions and a lot of hurt and a lot of confusion. There's been a bout with my depression that I've had a hard time managing. Beloved's encouraging me to find a counselor. In the meantime, I've decided that I should quiet my world and focus a little more on what is not on the screen.

she is His girl
she aches to please Him
she years to serve Him
she longs to worship Him
she is His slut, His girl
His toy, His possession, His love.
her body burns for Him
heart heart beats for Him
her soul longs for Him.
she is His.

*soft smile* I do long to please, to serve, to worship. But to do so, I need to know who I am and how I can best please, serve and worship.

I'll probably continue to put my thoughts here...this is, after all, a part of the journey, even if it isn't a pleasant part. Chances are I'll opt for no comments, but if I'm a little morose, please understand I'm just working through crap.