My week(s)...

People often ask you, "What's the most embarrassing moment you had in your life?" Oftentimes, we try to go to a humorous place.
But the most embarrassing moments are when we fail to live up to the moral courage we're required to.
-Terrence Howard

*wry smile* Boy, I sooooo get this! It's probably the biggest hurdle Beloved and I have about having an open relationship: I get caught up in the "social wrong" of having intimate relationships with someone else and so lie about it because I don't have the courage to tell the truth. Beloved's painfully understanding and coaches me on telling the truth, but it's hard some times!

Like kissing a stranger today because I felt sorry for sending him to the bathroom to "relieve" himself. That hadn't been on the approved list, hadn't been planned, but when he was leaving, it just seemed the natural thing to do...so I did...

Which is usually what gets me into trouble in the first place. Whatever the PLAN is, I follow what seems natural. *sigh*

ANYWAY, it's been a hell of a summer! haha...I gave up trying to finish a post about July 9-10-11 because I kept getting interrupted. grrrr...So, you'll have to settle for cliffnote versions of what I've been up to.

July 9: I got to hang out with Rabbit. We went to dinner at Ballydoyle's in Downers Grove. Apparently Fridays are Cruise Nights in Downers, so traffic and parking were a little crazy, but once we got seated, everything was pretty good. *grins* Pretty great. Rabbit and I sat and talked for almost 4 hours! I'm not sure what directions might come up, but it would seem we have a budding partners-in-crime friendship.

I got home just before midnight, and there was still a houseful of folks, two of whom ended up spending the night. Kids were up and down all night, though...

July 10: Beloved got up with the kids, and there was evidence of gaming this morning when I dragged myself out of bed at 9am. *rolls eyes* Lazy pixie! But I got up and changed diapers, mowed the grass, checked e-mail, and then went out and ran some errands with Boy. Two of the stops was to pick up as many spools as I could find of a particular ribbon for Rabbit for work. I managed to collect a total of 11 rolls by the time I dropped them off...

That afternoon, we left Rude13 in the middle of an online tournament to go play boardgames with a bunch of other parents. We had fun, the kids had a blast, and we arrive home tired but happy and amused that Rude really had spend 6.5 hours just hanging out at our place, alone...he spent the night again.

July 11: I managed to get myself up with the kids and we played a little before Beloved came down. Girl was ready for a morning nap and I had to drop the ribbon I'd collected, so Boy and I made the run. That afternoon, there was an impromptu visit from RedVulpes and his girls..."just dinner" for twelve people, half of whom were under ten years old. :-P

July 12: Kids and I went to Blackberry Farm and ran and ran and ran. I got them home, fed, bathed, and bedded by 8:00 (usually we START the baths at about 8pm). Beloved worked late, but not as late as I'd expected, so we had a little fun when he came home.

July 13: Kids went over to a friends house and I did some work at home. (Why is it that "down time" always seems to include chores???) Intentions of going to a yoga class fell apart because dinner took too long. Meh...whatever.

July 14: Beloved, being the mild sadist that he is, answered the phone and completely stunned the poor girl. *wry smile* He was still amused when he woke me gentle and told me about it. He gave me a few minutes, then reappeared with my phone saying I had, "Oh, thirty seconds" to call her back and not make a liar out of him. :-P Silly man! But I called and spent about an hour coaxing her into a better headspace. When I was up and about, I checked in on Boy...He seemed awfully warm and tired...When I took his temperature, it was 103. Yikes. Motrin and more fluids, and he seemed much better. Bouncing off the walls, better. *sigh* I was a bad momma, and I took him out in search of some AC (and more space to bounce). Another friend called as we were getting home...she needed some coaching through some of her hardships and I told her to come over. Beloved came home and spent more time talking to her, and I kinda think HE was on a better wavelength with her than I was. She ended up spending the night.

July 15: Spent the morning helping with a job search, because apparently I have "mad skilz" in the searching department. I dunno...While I FIND a bunch of stuff, it generally seems that people discover better options on their own, but I'll help if I can. *shrug* Beloved went to Great America with his co-worker, but ended up on the bench, people-watching because he wasn't feeling well. Good thing there was "plenty to see"! Both kids were a bit feverish, so we laid low all afternoon. Beloved came home slightly green and was in bed before the kids were. When everyone was settled, I finished my fluff book and went grocery shopping.

July 16: Girl seemed more fussy that her usual self, but otherwise the kids were recovered. Beloved went to work despite his pallor. It was a day.

July 17: I slept until about 8:30, then I read a bit and got teased when Beloved came in and found me lounging with my book! Beloved grabbed my pajama pants and had his way with me, using first his lips and tongue, then his cock. Slight dazed, I got my jammies back on and drifted downstairs. Beloved then teased me about the carpets...I've been grumbling about them internally for a while, and I said I'd been debating on contacting Jay. Beloved shrugged and said I could, then he took the kids to the park and ran them pretty hard. I DID get touch with Jay, who said he could come over immediately. *blush* I checked with Beloved who teased me about video-ing a blow job, but that no one, not even Jay, could see the recording...so when Jay came in, I asked, he agreed. After playing, Jay cleaned the carpets on the floor, and was just finishing up when Beloved came home with the kids.

After Jay packed up his equipment and left, Beloved said he had to reclaim my mouth, and took another video of my work. There's a photo that HE really likes...my hair is all disheveled so I think he's nuts...I don't know if he'll give me a copy to share... But shortly afterwards, Beloved left to go game with some friends. I hosted drum circle and got things back in reasonable order before curling up in bed. Beloved didn't come to bed until after 3am.

July 18: I got up with the kids, but Beloved was up and dressed before I every expected him! Some times I hate how well he functions on little sleep. :-( I shuffled back to nap with Girl. I had a very nice nap, thank you. When I returned to the Land of the Living, much better off than when I'd disappeared, Beloved and Boy had tickets to go see Shrek, the musical in Chicago. Apparently it was a total blast! I managed some personal time because Rain wanted (WANTED!) to babysit and I was happy to let her...I hit the thrift store and scored a great trunk for the kids' dress-up clothes! Einhander and Missi came over and gamed for a while on the PS3.