To every season...

It was gently pointed out to me that there are people who read here who I do not know and to simply disappear wasn't exactly fair. I apologize.

If you are a regular reader, you know so well that for the last couple of months, I've been riding a roller coaster, wondering if and when I could get off. I've written about taking a break, I've disappeared for a week, I've tried seeking quiet in my heart. There's been so much going on...Beloved's work is in major drastic flux, his mom just had a massive tumor removed from her back, the kids are running me ragged. Underneath it all, my service has been severely lacking and a burden to me as well as Beloved.

We have decided to dissolve our D/s relationship.

It is more of an acknowledgment of what has already happened, so while I was raw yesterday, I'm quietly accepting today. I don't know yet how this will impact other possible relationships; Beloved has encouraged me to seek *something* elsewhere if I feel it is important. I'm so not ready to jump into that fire...like I said, life has been crazy for me...US...lately, and there simply isn't the time or energy to even consider that work. And besides, no one can replace my Beloved Master.

There's also a disappointment that the D/s concepts didn't deliver what I had hoped...balance and peace of mind while I am on the home front. *sad smile* I suppose such things have a higher price than a simple lifestyle label.

In my mind, it seems unnecessary to say, but for your comfort, the D/s is the ONLY part of our relationship that we are dissolving. He is ever my Beloved husband and partner.

I may continue to write here. Nicothoe commented that I have desire to write, a place to consolidate your thoughts and events taking place in your life into words. A place to write about your daily life, to post a recipe, to embark on a political or philosophical rant, to post fictional tales of love and romance, a place to let off steam. I do at that. *smiles* I don't know what will happen in the near future. I only know that change is happening.