Gods...if anyone has any to spare...I'm cleaning out the kids toys, cleaning house, cleaning the bedroom, and even being down one child I do not have enough TIME...
*sigh* I guess I'd settle for for some plain old motivation. Maybe if I got some sense of satisfaction when I did complete something? Except that everything is just has that re-run feel. Laundry, pick up, cleaning... It never ends. *frowns* Beloved said today that maybe we should "re-examine your role in the household".
Beloved Master: I think it may be time to re-examine your role in the household.
pixie: reexamine my role?
Beloved Master: It's been a long time since I heard you say anything positive about being at home.
pixie: i'm sorry
Beloved Master: Perhaps a daycare / school option is something we should be looking into. I am not scolding, you don't need to be sorry, I am observing.
I launched into the reasons.
*I am feeling very overwhelmed by the house right now.
*I'm not getting enough sleep. I really can't afford to stay up until 11:30 pm.
*I am feeling like people are pissed off that we can't have everyone and their uncle over for the NYE party, but the space we have is limited, especially by all the holiday stuff.
*I am tired of fighting with Boy over my computer. Grandma let him find Batman games on her laptop, and now Boy thinks he should be allowed to play them on my computer any time he wants...but he can't play them without help...so, yeah.
*cocks head* I honestly don't mind doing chores...but I do resent not being given time to do them. Does that make sense? Back to not having enough time...or enough motivation. Or both. *sigh* Beloved's going to be home any moment and I HAVE GOT TO FINISH picking up the toys. Again...
I'm sure by the time I type this, Boy has learned (or started learning) that he doesn't always get what he wants, especially when what he wants is something borrowed from Mommy when Mommy needs to use it.
ReplyDeleteI will probably never say getting too little sleep is acceptable. I may not always practice what I preach in that regard, but I have learned to be defensive of my sleep time because being awake enough to think at work, and not nodding off behind the wheel, are both important!
You are fully justified in limiting the NYE party size, esp. given the previous party, and sticking strictly to that limit is the only way to be fair to everyone who doesn't get to be there. You should probably limit the size of all future gatherings at your house as well.