Our Deepest Fear

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light , not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be
brilliant,
gorgeous,
talented,
fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of god.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make and manifest the glory of god that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~ Marianne Williamson


That was read at the opening of SJW. I can't honestly say what it was Beloved said this morning that made me recall the poem, but it was something similar. That my submission isn't for anyone else...it is for ME. And that I have the right to say what I will submit to...where I will shine. He also firmly pointed out that I'm just working through subdrop. heh. JUST.

I've been sick several times this morning...really unpleasant since I'd taken Boy to the mall so he could play. Seriously, public rest rooms are the worst place to be sick.

One of the other SJW-ers wrote about being drained. Yeah...that too. I'm trying not to feel bitter, but I feel like everyone around me saw SJW as a vacation...hell, I looked at it that way before I left...but it was hard hard work and I'm worn out. I'd give a lot to have one day to myself...no doctor appointments to rush to, no chores, no company...just quiet sleep and recovery. I just don't know how to make that happen.